100 Questions... again... face/palm

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
Melody's Song by The Ready Set
Featuring Some of Your Favorite Words by From First to Last
By Now by Marianas Trench
No Mercy by B.A.P
The Boys by Girls Generation
1, 2, 3, 4 by Lee Hi
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
I'll give you my top five.
1. Jennifer Lawrence
2. G-Dragon
3. Tim Burton
4. Dita Von Teese
5. Helena Bonham Carter
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
"...research project!" She cut him off. "That they want to know..."
4) What do you think about most?
Why it hurts.
5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
"Haha same as me :P"
6) Do you sleep with or without on?
I sleep with clothes on.
7) What’s your strangest talent?
Making people feel like they've known me for a long time instead of just meeting.
And reading people.
8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence)
Girls are girls. Boys are boys.
9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
Not that I know of.
10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
Uhhhhhhhhhh..... I'm not sure.
11) Do you have any strange phobias?
I don't think any of my phobias are strange.
12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
Nope.
13) What’s your religion?
Agnostic. Didn't I answer this last time?
14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Errands. Or wandering around.
15) Do you perfer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
Behind.
16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
Giving top five again.
1. My Chemical Romance (before their last album) 
2. Paramore
3. Marianas Trench
4. Vixx
5. G-Dragong (who is actually an artist, not a band.)17) What was the last lie you told?
"I am not that intoxicated." 
18) Do you believe in karma?
Somewhat
19) What does your URL mean?
Things I love, things I fight over/hate, cosmetic things, fashion things.
20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
I care too much.
Honesty.21) Who is your celebrity crush?
Too many... Too many...
22) Have you ever gone skinny?
I know I have answered this one... 
23) How do you vent your anger?
Being pissy and a bitch until I calm down. Or I talk to my friends.
24) Do you have a collection of anything?
Postcards, posters, things from places I've been.
25) Do you perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
...Phone... 
26) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
I'd say 85% happy.
27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?
I hate the sound of really high pitched squeaky things and a child crying. Deities... No.
I love music.28) What’s your biggest “what if”?
I have too many.
29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
Somewhat, but I really don't care much about it.
30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
Right arm: Sir Foxington, the stuffed fox.
Left arm: my cellphone.31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
My home.
32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to?
The dentist.
33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
I wanna say East because I like it over there...but I grew up in the West....
34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
Too many...too many...
35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
I've answered this...
Finding what makes you happy.
36) Define: Art.
Anything that requires a skill.
37) Do you believe in luck?
Yeup.
38) What’s the weather like right now?
Pretty chilly.
39) What time is it?
8:40 pm pacific.
40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
Yes, and no.
41) What was the last book you read?
Like, completed? Black Jewel Trilogy by Anne Bishop. Not completed: The Box, You are the Experiment by Richard Matheson.
42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
Yarp.
43) Do you have any nicknames?
Hannie, Sweet Pea, Sweets, My sweet light and love, Princess Pea... All but the first one comes from Juanita.
44) What was the last movie you saw?
Star Trek into Darkness
45) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?
Uhh... I had brain surgery. Other than that, broken bones.
46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
Gross, no.47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
Yes.
48) What’s your sexual orientation?
Whatever happens, happens.
49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
Yes.
50) Do you believe in magic?
Somewhat.
51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
Depends on what they did and how much I care about them.
52) What is your astrological sign?
Libra.
53) Do you save money or spend it?
I save it, then spend it.
54) What’s the last thing you purchased?
I bought shakes.
55) Love or lust?
Love.
56) In a relationship?
Not a romantic one.
57) How many relationships have you had?
Uhhh does third grade count? Cause if not, one.
58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
No.
59) Where were you yesterday?
Work then Angela's house.
60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
A Korean coin purse.
61) Are you wearing socks right now?
Nope.
62) What’s your favorite animal?
I...I can't pick... Just... I love all zeh animals. @_@
63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
Be myself and honesty?
64) Where is your best friend?
I assume home.
65) Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
With a career and settling down...somewhat.
66) What is your heritage?
Korean.
67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
I think either painting a sign with Raffi and Angela or playing cards with Angela, Raffi, and John-na-na-na-ny. x3
68) What do you think is Satan’s last name?
Why would Satan have a last name?
69) Do you want to get married?
Yes.
70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
I would say yes. Maybe... A definite maybe?
71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
I save the dog, call animal services and the police, get them to take care of the dog, then have them write me a written and signed report for my boss... If I still get fired, then I get fired.
72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
A) I would tell a few people.
B) Be honest and say everything I ever wanted to then tell everyone I love, I love them.
C) I think I'd be nervous.
73) You can only have one of these things: trust or love.
Both.
74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
Who You? by G-Dragon or G.R.8.U by Vixx
75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
7178
76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
Trust, honesty, friendship, consideration, and common interests.
77) How can I win your heart?
Honestly, I have no clue.
78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
Well, yeah.
79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
Being my own person.
80) What size shoes do you where?
*Wear. I wear a size 6-6 1/2 W in women's but sometimes a 7. 
81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
Here lies awesomeness.
82) What is your favorite word?
Anthrax.
83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word:heart.
"This heart, it beats, beats for only you. My heart is yours." - My Heart by Paramore
84) What is a saying you say a lot?
I don't really know... 
85) What’s the last song you listened to?
Growl by EXO
86) Basic question: what’s your favorite color/colors?
Purple and its variations. I also like blue and its variations. Green and its variations.
87) What is your current desktop picture? 

It's actually frozen on one of those and I should change it soon...

88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
....Heh... If you know me, you would know.
89) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
Do you consider me a real friend of yours?
90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?
First I would cover my mouth so I don't scream. Then I would look around, see if I could recognize any of them. Then I would reach for my phone, take a picture, then call the cops.
91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
The ability to psychically talk with anyone no matter the distance between us. They can respond but cannot initiate the conversation.
92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
Hmmm.... I have no clue. Nothing? 
93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
Hahahahahahahaha! I don't think I would because then I wouldn't be me.
94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
I don't want to sleep with them... I want to hug them and be their friend. I mean I would ogle them but I don't want to sleep with them...
95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
Korea. Duh.
96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
Not anymore. 
97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
In, no. On...yes... and I was yelled at for it.
98) Ever been on a plane?
Many times.
99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
.___.
Uhh... Hi. 100) What would be the ideal age for you to die?
Whenever I am damn well ready.

A Castle and a Boy.

Once there was a castle that reached the heavens. The townspeople feared it, the emperors desired it, the explorers wanted to see it. This castle, however, was an enigma of sorts. No matter who went near, or who tried to reach it, they would find themselves in a forest, going in circles for hours until they found themselves where the castle thought they belonged.

The castle had a sense of humor, once, it sent an emperor to the grave of the emperors before him. Of course he didn't find that very funny.

"Demons!" The townspeople started to cry. "Demons is why no one can reach it! It is a house of demons!" The emperors shook their head whenever they heard this. If it reached the heavens, how could demons possibly be inside? They assumed it was a god. It had to be, right? They needed somewhere to rest on Earth but still be connected to the heavens to survive. So they tried sending knights with offerings, tried to coax the god in their favor, but nothing happened, except the knights would end up home with their families.

The explorers studied the castle from afar, wondering how to get in.
One of these explorers had a son, one of which knew all about the castle. He said, as a child, that there must be someone very special inside the castle. The castle was protecting whoever was inside. He told his father one day, "I will make friends with the castle and whoever is inside. They must be lonely. I don't want them to be alone."

So every night, before he had to go to bed, he'd go as close to the castle as he could, look up, and yell to the highest peak, "Don't worry! I'll be your friend! I promise!" And instead of trying to push on to get closer to the castle, he would head back and go to bed. This went on for a year before the boy noticed that he could get closer to the castle than before. This made him excited and so he kept up the routine.

As the boy got older, he started talking more on his journey, thinking the castle could hear him. "Today, my father found a hidden grove just west of the town in the valley. It was beautiful! The water was so clear and the reflections it gave onto the rock were the most beautiful colors I've ever seen." He laughed.

This went on for a few months and he noticed the castle becoming even closer. Instead of going straight to bed, now the boy would sit at the point where he could not proceed and talk to the castle. "I can't wait to meet you and whoever is inside. I bet you are both lovely." He would proceed. "I hope I can show you the world outside. Maybe you can tell me about your world? What is it like in there." He wouldn't expect answers, just grin, dust himself off, and leave for the night.

He was now a man, though the castle still thought of him as a boy. It had been many years, more than a decade since the boy started to wander towards the castle and he finally made it to the door. His excitement overtook him and he grabbed the door handle, hoping to be able to push in. But to his disappointment, it remained locked. He frowned for a moment and looked up. For the first time, he noticed a tower. In this tower, he saw a light behind a curtain and what was even more exciting was that the light illuminated a figure. He grinned and stepped back, shoving his hands in his pockets. "So is that who you protect?" He asked the castle, looking at its door with a sly grin. "Thank you for showing me. I'll keep coming and keep waiting."

He rushed home and couldn't wait for the next night. He couldn't wait until he could meet that figure in the tower.

For what seemed like forever, the boy would come and sit in front of the door. He would talk to the castle, trying to soothe it, trying to see when he could see the figure. It seemed like the castle was being fickle. He had made it all this way and yet the door was blocking him. He never tired of talking to the castle and the castle never tired of hearing the boys tales and adventures.

It was the day of his twentieth birthday and the boy decided against parties, against spending time with his friends and family, instead he brought food and a pack to the castle and sat outside the door. "Today is my twentieth birthday. I wanted to spend the day here. I don't expect you to give me anything for my birthday, but I wanted to see you." He laughed. "How silly, I want to spend my birthday with a castle who does not respond."

He nearly fell over when he heard a soft voice. "Happy birthday." He chocked on his own breath and his eyes widened. "Is...Castle, did you just speak?"
"Well how can a castle speak?" The voice, which he assigned to a girl, retorted.
"Then... who are you?" He asked cautiously.

There was nothing but silence.

He sighed and scratched the back of his neck. "Hello?"

No reply.

"Hello?"

Still nothing.

"Oh, come on!" He groaned and sat down. Just as he was about to open his pack, the door opened. Pulling the pack on his back, he stood, walked in, and jumped as the door slammed behind him. He looked around and saw that the castle was nothing like he expected. Inside was furnished, as if someone took very good care of it. The walls weren't bare, but had tapestries and art hanging down. The candles were lit and it was very much pleasant and warm inside. He had thought that it would be bare, cold, and that nothing but the person inside would be there.

"Hello?" He called out.

He wandered towards the staircase, remembering the tower. While climbing, he took his time, walking along and examining the place around him. It was magnificent and splendid. He had a smile that couldn't be removed from his lips.

"Do....you like it?" The soft voice was heard once more. His eyes wandered to try and find the girl, but they landed on the curtains that were bulging a bit.

"It's beautiful." He took a cautious step towards the curtains. "Do you live here alone?"

"Yes, quite alone. This is my place, the only place that I belong. But no one else belongs in here with me." The lump shifted a bit.
"Not even a friend?" His foot hit a creaky board. He winced and looked at the curtain to find the lump gone.

Confused, he climbed the stairs quicker, more determined to find out who this girl was. It took him an hour or so before he even got to the tower's entrance. Once there, he heard the voice again.
"What will you do if your imaginations aren't real? Will you be disappointed?" The voice seemed to be above him. His eyes wandered up and he caught the hint of a pale pink gown, fluttering. The girl was behind a pillar, sitting on a supporting structure, but there was no way she could have climbed up there. "How did you get up there?"

When there was no answer he thought about her question. "I haven't been disappointed thus far and to expect anything is a bit ridiculous right about now."

A soft giggle came from behind the pillar. The peek of her gown slid behind the pillar and she was gone once more. He was more determined than ever. He opened the tower's door and ran up the stairs, ignoring the stinging in his legs. He had to figure it out. He had to know who this girl was.


At last, the door stood before him. The door  that would solve the mystery. "I worry, you won't like me when you see me." The voice spoke from behind the door. "I'm not any sort of 'friend' material. I'm not even made of a material." Her voice sounded as if she was pouting, it made him grin to think about it. He took a moment, thinking about what she would look like, what she would be like. His heart was racing and after spending more than a decade trying to unravel the mystery of the castle, he was about to. "Are you taking back your promise?" The voice broke the silence and he pulled open the door. The girl before him wasn't real. He realized that she wasn't alive. Though she was beautiful, she was clearly not fully there.

Before anything else could happen. Before his mind processed what was in front of him. Before the girl had a chance to run or say anything. He touched her wrist, pulled her into his arms and hugged her close, burying his face into her shoulder. "Never." He spoke into her ear faintly.

The girl was frozen, this was the first time anyone could touch her. The first time she felt warmth. The first time that she had anyone in the castle but her. Shaking, her arms wrapped around the boy and let herself sink into the warmth that neither of them would forget.

Amazing... Wonderful... I will conquer my enemies in this...

So I decided that I would write about something other than cosmetics for once.

This is a dress that my friend sent me on Facebook.

This dress was made for the Spring/Summer collection in 1998 for the House of Dior. The designer is John Galliano and it is now at the Metropolitan Museum of Art.

Let's take a moment to appreciate this gown.

It's definitely influenced by the 18th/19th century but man is it gorgeous. Imagine being in this gown. Imagine the structure that supports its shape and how in order to get that shape, someone spent hours configuring the under metal skirt in order to align it just right. Even movement wouldn't deter the shape of it. 

I just can't...

It's so beautiful...

I want to wear it. I want to sleep in it. (Probably impossible)

I keep saying I want to conquer my enemies in it, and what I mean by that is that this dress would make me feel so wonderful and powerful. The gown itself has such a presence that it would captivate attention no matter who wore it.

I want... At least to see it. *-*

Deities, imagine wearing a large black jeweled necklace that had lace accents and tapered into a point. Imagine having your hair up with strands falling a bit loose and your wrists mirroring the jewels on your neck.

Sapphires... 

Yes.

The Flower and the Demon

Manga: 花と悪魔, (Hana to Akuma aka The Flower and the Demon)

Rating: 

This story had me crying non-stop. I just had too many feels... Way...too...many...feels. I read the entire series on Manga Z app for windows 8 and it took me less than a week. I was just trapped in its story and I loved it. The characters were sweet and dangerous, the story was cute and draws the readers into it. It is a romance story.

So the story centers around a girl named Hana, she was found as a baby on the doorsteps of a demon prince's home, named Vivi. He decided, that since it was interesting, he'd raise her. So Hana grew up around demons and their world, but once Hana was older, she fell in love with Vivi. Vivi just thought of her as a child and didn't pay it much mind until he realized that he was the only thing that was truly important to him. So after doing his duty in the underworld, he comes back years later to an older Hana who he spends the rest of her life with.

Now, it may seem typical, it may seem bland, it may seem boring, but I love it. The story itself is so well written. The conflicts, the development of character, and the general cuteness of "falling in love" is so well done in this manga. Really, just read it.

Why am I like this? (Kpop)

I love Vixx, I think they are super creative and super fun to watch. Their personalities shine through no matter the situations and they are just wonderful. Truly wonderful. Their songs are catchy and have feeling, they're not afraid of new concepts and are certainly not afraid to be adorable.

When this song first came out, I could not stop watching the music video because it was so fricken adorable. Even when I'm sad and crying, I will watch the video and giggle and feel giddy inside. ^_^
Perfection.



Group: Vixx
Song: 대.다.나.다.너 (G.R.8.U)

English lyrics:

You completely disarmed all of me

I think I’m losing control

There’s no way something this sweet can be bad for me

I want to love you

Are you human? How can you be so beautiful?

Look at that face that is smiling at me

Are you really mine? Is this all a dream?

I want to give you my all

(Why am I like this?) I wasn’t like this but I keep getting greedy

(Why is it like this?) The feelings get bigger

(Why am I like this?) A me that I didn’t even know has awakened

Because of your love

(Uh uh woo) Because of you

(Uh uh woo) Because of you alone

(Uh uh woo) Yes, you awakened me

When I open my eyes, your face floats up first

If I can’t see you, I can’t take it

Like a person who has never experienced a break up

I love you, I love you, I love you, I confess everyday

Do you know everything about me? If you do, will you be disappointed?

I want to be a better person (for you)

Are you a good person? If not, who cares?

I’ve already fallen for you

(Why am I like this?) I wasn’t like this but I keep getting greedy

(Why is it like this?) The feelings get bigger

(Why am I like this?) A me that I didn’t even know has awakened

Because of your love

(Uh uh woo) Because of you

(Uh uh woo) Because of you alone

(Uh uh woo) Yes, you awakened me

Just your existence alone is perfect, you have both elegance and sexiness

Eyes, nose, lips, it’s all beautiful – you alone gather all the admiration of the world

You’re too much (wow) Even if I say it backwards (oo-wa)

A night with you will be an ecstatic night that I’ll count down to

Tell me that you love me

Before I go crazy, yeah

(Why am I like this?) Inside of me

(Why is it like this?) Is a crazy person that only knows you

(Why am I like this?) You brought out a me that I didn’t even know

I’ll never let you go

(Uh uh woo) Can’t let you go

(Uh uh woo) No matter what kind of days come

(Uh uh woo) Love everything of me

Korean Lyrics:

[라비] You guys ready?
Here we go

[엔] 내 모든 걸 완벽히 해제시켜버린 너
I think I’m losing control oh yeah

[레오] 이 달콤한 게 내게 해로울 리 없잖아
널 사랑하고 싶어

사람인 게 맞나 이토록 아름답나
내게 웃는 저 얼굴 좀 봐

[홍빈] 내 사람 된 게 맞나 전부 꿈은 아닌가
내 모든 걸 다 주고 싶어

([모두] 내가 왜 이럴까) [켄] 안 부렸던 욕심이 자꾸
([모두] 이거 왜 이럴까) [레오] 내 안에서 커져가
([모두] 내가 왜 이럴까) [엔] 나도 모르던 내가 깨어난 것 같아
[홍빈] 네 사랑 때문에
([모두] Uh uh woo) 너 때문에
([모두] Uh uh woo) [켄] 너 하나 때문에
([모두] Uh uh woo) [홍빈] 그래 네가 날 깨웠어

[켄] 눈 뜨면 제일 먼저 떠오르는 네 얼굴
보지 않고 못 견디고 oh yeah

[레오] 한 번도 이별한 적 없는 사람처럼 널
[모두] 사랑해 사랑해 사랑해 [레오] 매일 고백한다

나를 전부 알까 다 알면 실망할까
더 좋은 사람 되고 싶어 ([켄] 너를 위해서 난)

[홍빈] 넌 좋은 사람일까 아니면 또 어떤가
이미 난 빠져버렸는데

([모두] 내가 왜 이럴까) [켄] 안 부렸던 욕심이 자꾸
([모두] 이거 왜 이럴까) [레오] 내 안에서 커져가
([모두] 내가 왜 이럴까) [엔] 나도 모르던 내가 깨어난 것 같아
[홍빈] 네 사랑 때문에
([모두] Uh uh woo) 너 때문에
([모두] Uh uh woo) [켄] 너 하나 때문에
([모두] Uh uh woo) [홍빈] 그래 네가 날 깨웠어

[라비] 너는 존재 자체가 완벽해 우아함과 섹시가 공존해
눈, 코, 입 가리지 않고 아름다워 세상 혼자 전부 다 사네
감탄사만 남발해 (와우) 거꾸로 말을 해봐도 (우와)
나와 함께할 이 밤은 손에 꼽히는 황홀한 밤

[켄] 나를 사랑한다고 말해줘
[레오] 내가 미쳐가기 전에 yeah

([모두] 내가 왜 이럴까) [레오] 내 안에 너밖에 모르는
([모두] 이거 왜 이럴까) [켄] 미친 사람이 생겼어
([모두] 내가 왜 이럴까) [엔] 내가 모르던 나를 네가 꺼낸거야
[레오] I’ll never let you go
([모두] Uh uh woo) [레오] Can’t let you go
([모두] Uh uh woo) [켄] 어떤 날이 와도
([모두] Uh uh woo) [홍빈] 나의 모든 걸 사랑해줘

English Lyrics: Pop!Gasa

Korean Lyrics: Color Coded Lyrics